Life

Life is treating me like a stranger. I dont know how to get out of this situation. It’s strange that I am unknown to myself. The person who grew up and the person whp turned out on growing up are two different people. Its becoming hard day by day to keep abalance between the two, to keep hold on life itself. Everyday I struggle to keep calm. To keep calm in front of my love, my kidos and others, when the tables turn. But don’t know how to get out of this.

I never ever was such a irritating person. But now I am irritating myself. Life has so much to offer but I am not opening up to accept it. How hard I may try but trys are all I do.

Sometimes I hear or see someone elses problems and their struggles with life, for a while I feel blessed but then again my darkness falls on me. I have become like a frog 2ho liv3s in a well and thinos its the whole world. I hate this situation. I want to come out of it, the wrll is a very scary place, it may suffocate me. The darkness down here is very numbing. I am desperate to feel everything again, the way I used to feel. I want to be real me. The originql me. I understand the pain and wait of pupa before it comes out of the cocoon as an enchanting butterfly but the difference here is I don’t know when my cocoon will break.

It is said the night is darkest before the dawn and the turn where we feel enough is enough is where the things take turn. But why can’t anyone tell the time for this long wait which seems infinite.

16 thoughts on “Life

  1. Life is not a place to hide behind, it is a place of involvement. I watched a video clip by Prince Ea he made it known that we can either live a life finding happiness or a life full of gratitude. Happiness is not real, it has determinants. But gratitude is a perfect lifestyle, just been grateful for the little much you have and keep loving and living.

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  2. Your pupa will break someday and soon. I told a friend last week Sunday that everyone of us have our predestined time and our time will come. But before it comes, we have to keep strong and beautiful so that we wouldn’t have passed away when our time finally comes. It happens a lot in my side of the world, where young men and women pass away just before their pupa finally decides to break. If you have survived this long.. You are a survivor.

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    1. Here my side of world too is similar to yours. Now a days the rate of pp committing suicide is increasing but I don’t have the courage to do so. I am too affraid plus I fear that I wouldn’t get to see my loved ones, so this is the only time I have to make out of it. So I struggle hard to hold on, ignoring the pain I go through daily.

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      1. Wow. Those are endless reasons why you need to stay focus, “help is on the way”. Thanks for sharing your thoughts with me, I’m also motivated. 💝

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